Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Picture Challenge

I was leaving for the Close To My Heart convention where I would be learning, growing, having fun and celebrating my 20th anniversary with the company.  But as I sat at the airport waiting for my flight I received a phone call telling me that our Bishop and friend had died.  Leaving at that moment was so hard as the news was really hard on my family, but my husband told me to go have fun and that this was proof that life is short and we should make an effort to enjoy each moment.

So I went and it was a wonderful experience.  I learned so much, won a few prizes and was truly inspired business wise, creatively and spiritually.  An amazing moment was when the owner and CEO bore her testimony of how she knows God loves her despite the physical challenges she is going through.  I got very little sleep as ideas rolled through my head both day and night.  But I have to say that the thing that really got me to enjoy myself was the challenge that my husband gave me.  He challenged me to send him pictures every day showing him that I was having fun.  At first it was a little challenging for me, but then I really got into it.  I even asked others to join in with me as I told them his challenge for me and had them pose in pictures with me.  I stepped out of my comfort zone by introducing myself to a lot of different people and having them be in my pictures.

Shortly after I returned home, the funeral for our Bishop and friend was held.  After the funeral there was a luncheon during which a slide show with pictures of him played.  My favorite was a selfie that was taken of him with those that were with him the day he died.  He looked so happy, as he did in all his pictures.  Watching that slide show made me think of the pictures that I took on my trip.  A picture may be worth of thousand words, but for me, one word will do -- joy.  Joy in the time I had on my trip and joy in knowing a wonderful man.  Take joy in your every day, it is worth more than a thousand words.

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Looking for Peace

A few weeks ago one of my daughter's best friends returned home from her mission and I was so excited to see her, she is so sweet and so beautiful and it was wonderful to hear her talk in church about her experience.  One thing that she mentioned was that her mission president gave them all a challenge to read their scriptures every day and every time they came across the word "heart" to highlight it.  I really thought this was a great idea and as I have been thinking about it, I wanted to do this same experiment, but I wanted to choose a different word, one that would help me through my current challenges.  I have thought about it and prayed about it and have decided to watch for the word "peace."

Since my anxiety started around 2005 or 2006, I haven't felt much peace.  A few years later was when I had my first full-blown panic attack, then later I started therapy and so on to now.  Also, as I have been working through these latest childhood issues, I had wondered what I wanted at the end of this, what am I looking for?  After much thought and prayer, I realized that I was looking for peace.  I'll randomly update this blog on my progress of looking for peace, not only in the word in the scriptures, but also in my life.

What word would you look for?