Wednesday, October 31, 2012


This mug my friend Heather gave to me that says "Boolicious" on the front has a cute little ghost inside for you to see when you finish your cocoa, and that makes me smile!

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Jedi Puppy

On Good Morning America they showed this video of a little boy playing Jedi knights with his dog who was battling back with his own laser sword, it made me smile so much!

Monday, October 29, 2012

Being a Daffodil Mom

My daughter wasn't the only one who was sad seeing her year as a Daffodil Princess come to a close, I was too.  I really enjoyed the experience of being a Daffodil Princess Mom and watching her grow, change and totally enjoy herself as well as getting to know a whole new group of people, especially the other princess moms.

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Opportunity to Serve

"Imagine what good we can do in the world if we all join together, united as followers of Christ."  By Elder M. Russell Ballard

This is the quote given to us today in Relief Society along with this note:

In your morning prayer each new day ask Heavenly Father to guide you to recognize an opportunity to serve one of His precious children.  Then go through out the day with your heart full of faith and love, looking for someone to help.  Stay focused, just like the honeybees focus on the flowers from which to gather nectar and pollen.  If you do this, your spiritual sensitivities will be enlarged and you will discover opportunities to serve that you never before realized were possible.  I know that if you do this - at home, at school, at work and at church - the Spirit will guide you, and you will be able to discern those in need of a particular service that only you may be able to give.  You will be prompted by the Spirit and magnificently motivated to help pollinate the world with the pure love of Christ and His gospel.

Our teacher gave us all a challenge to try and do this and to share our experiences with her when she teaches us again next month.

Friday, October 26, 2012

Makes Me Smile

I started a 365 day project last year on a different blog,, here is what I said on that first post:

I've been thinking about doing a 365 Day Project for quite awhile. I love the idea of posting 1 thing a day for 365 days all with one theme in mind. As I have mulled over what to do for my first 365 Day Project, a scrapbooking class I taught many years ago came to mind (see my blog for more about that part of my life). It can be very overwhelming to think about starting to scrapbook when you have hundreds of pictures covering years of photo taking. I usually tell people to just start scrapbooking from this point forward and then go back if and when you can.

Another suggestion I have made is to make a book with just your most favorite memories in it. These are the pictures that you stop at extra long and say "ahh" as you are looking through your photos. You know the ones, those photos that have an extra tug at your heart. The class I taught years ago was making a mini-scrapbook entitled "100 Memories That Make Me Smile." It was a 6x6 scrapbook where the students in the class would be able to put just one picture on a page. Doing a scrapbook like this feels more doable. So as I thought about my 365 Day Project I decided I need to do something "doable" and the "100 Memories That Make Me Smile" idea came to mind.

I decided to do 365 Days of things that "Make me Smile." I also thought that since I have been working through depression (see my blog for more on that part of my life) I thought it would be helpful to focus a little every day on something that does make me smile. So, I'm starting tomorrow, on my birthday. So, ready or not, time to start smiling!

That project ended recently and, as I have posted on this blog, I started a new project on that blog.  But I have realized that noticing something that makes me smile and wanting to take a picture of it has become a habit and so I have decided to continue noticing and taking pictures of things that make me smile and posting them on this blog.  It won't be a daily thing, just random as things move me to click that picture.  It makes me happy to think that I will keep this concept going, in fact, it makes me smile.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Stress Manifestation

I have been having problems with my jaw hurting and then one of my teeth suddenly became really sensitive to cold and I started to wonder if maybe the tooth was infected and that was why my jaw was hurting.  Because my jaw hurt so much on the right side I started chewing only on the left side.  Then while I was in Idaho I noticed that a piece broke off one of my teeth on the left side so I called the dentist and scheduled an appointment for when I got back. 

My dentist fixed my broken tooth and took x-rays of the tooth that was being really sensitive to cold.  He showed me on the x-ray how the tissue around the tooth was really inflamed but that the tooth itself was fine.  He said that he thought that I was probably grinding my teeth while I sleep which would explain the swollen tissue and the sore jaw and that stress can cause a person to grind their teeth.  The funny thing is that initially when the jaw pain started I fleetingly wondered if I was grinding my teeth.  This pain had only started a few weeks ago and a few weeks before that was when I left my daughter at college.  So was my jaw pain being a manifestation of how I was feeling emotionally?

I have become a firm believer that our bodies talk to us, that our body's pains are its messages.  Here was my jaw talking to me and I wasn't listening or even understanding the message.  When I got home from the dentist I pulled out my go-to books on understanding these body messages and here is what I found:

Jaw Problems:  Feelings of rage, Subconsciously wanting revenge, Inability to express how one feels from Feelings Buried Alive Never Die by Karol Truman

Jaw Problems:  Anger.  Resentment.  Desire for revenge.  From You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay

That's when I realized that I haven't been letting my anger out, it was something I started last year and was doing it along with my weight loss program.  I had stopped doing it, not sure why, but this was my message that I need to start doing it again.

In Louise Hay's book she offers what she calls "new thought patterns" to go along with the probable emotional cause of a physical problem and with jaw problems she says this as a new thought pattern:

I am willing to change the patterns in me that created this condition.  I love and approve of myself.  I am safe.

I never imagined I would have my dentist telling me that I was stressed, but he sure did and I should have been listening to the message that my body had been trying to send for several weeks.  Message received and heard, time to work on getting my anger out again and assure my body that I heard it.

Monday, October 22, 2012

My 2nd Apartment

More pictures of me from when I was around 20 in my bedroom of my apartment.  We were in Apartment 301 and the managers freaked out when they realized I had a water bed on the 3rd floor, hey, they never said I couldn't have it.  You can see a little of the wired posters that I loved!

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Our Spirit Remembers

You have left an exalted state to live in a fallen one, you have left the presence of God to exist in a realm of spiritual death.  Have you ever wondered how much your spirit stubbornly remembers but that the veil won't reveal?  Or how much of your frustrations comes from being in a far less state of glory than the one you were previously in?  From Your Divine Purpose by Richard Paul Anderson

I love this quote because when I say to myself, "something in me is telling me ..." I have learned that it is my spirit, or as I like to call it, my Heavenly self, who still remembers something of heaven.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Weight Loss - 365 Day Project

Well, I have posted anything for awhile on my weight loss, pretty much because there hasn't been any.  I am starting a new 365 Day Project which I have a blog for ( and this is the post that I did on it today:

For the last few weeks knowing that my "Makes Me Smile" 365 day project was coming to a close I have wondered if I wanted to do another one. I had many ideas bouncing around in my head of what I could do, but then a few days ago I remembered why I started this project in the first place. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression and thought that focusing on something happy each day would help with that. I had started the project to help myself improve emotionally. As I thought about that I decided to continue with this daily project but to focus on something else I need to work on. I have spent that last 5 years in therapy working through some emotional issues that were connected to the anxiety and depression. I have to admit that emotionally I do feel like a new person. During this intense focus on my mental well being I have let go of my physical well being. I thought that since I had spent this last year on the inside that it might be a good idea to spend the next year on the outside, so here is my three fold plan:

  1. I asked my doctor for tips on losing weight and she said that she believes that the number one thing for her is to have a food journal. Well, I have one and I do it hit and miss so this step is going to be about trying to use it daily. I have the Fitness Pal app on my ipad and my phone so I have no excuse to log in my food and exercise there. I have used the plate method for my food and lost weight before so I will use this again for my food plan. I need to make sure I drink a lot of water and get my exercise in every day and I will be able to record both on Fitness Pal.
  2. I have recently found a few products that I just love, so much so that I signed up to be a distributor. The It Works! products that I love the most are the Defining Gel, Wraps and Fat Fighters. These products help tone, firm and tighten the skin and the amazing results I have had with the Defining Gel alone on the cellulite blows me away. This step will be all about toning and tightening as I lose weight.
  3. I am also a distributor for Close to my Heart which is a company that sells stamping and scrapbooking supplies. A few months ago we had our annual convention and I went for the first time in a really long time. I loved it all, but there was one comment by one of the presenters, Stacy Julian, that I keep finding myself saying which is "cute matters." Cute definitely matters in crafting, but I have come to realize that cute matters in how you feel about yourself too. My plan with this step is to not just throw on sweats every day like I have been, but to really make an effort to make myself feel cute.
Well, that's my plan in a nutshell. I have been focusing on learning how to love myself despite the outside, but that shouldn't mean that I ignore the outside. One of my most favorite sayings is from Jeannette Lynton who is the President and CEO of Close to my Heart that she said at one of our conventions, she said, "if you want a beautiful life, make every square inch of it beautiful." So as I have been on my journey to making my inside beautiful, I think it is time to make the outside beautiful too. I am not totally sure what kind of pictures I will take, but I am hoping to show the positive side of this journey, notice any little bit of progress and I start tomorrow on my 49th Birthday, so watch out 50 next year I should have every inch of my world beautiful!

I am curious as to how it will turn out and if you are too, click on the link above.  It should be an interesting journey.

Monday, October 15, 2012

Rooming with Paula

Here are some pictures of me with one of my roommates, Paula.  We had such a fun time living together!  I was around 20 when these pictures were taken in my room of our apartment.  It really made me smile seeing these again!


Sunday, October 14, 2012

Give Him Everything

Instead of a never-satisfied God shaking His finger at my selfishness, I felt God reaching out His hand to me, asking me to give Him everything - my children, my parents, my worries - and to trust that He would both give me back the portion that would be for my blessing and tenderly care for the rest.  I realized that when we hold back the portion that would be for my blessing and tenderly care for the rest.  I realized that when we hold back from God, something in us will start to die.  We do not just struggle to give Him our assets; we also struggle to give Him our deficits.  His request that we give Him everything - holding nothing back - can be a great blessing.

                                                      from the book Forgiving Ourselves, by Wendy Ulrich

Monday, October 8, 2012

Photobooth Pictures with Jenny

More pictures of me and my friend Jenny, photo booth style.  I think this would be around 5th or 6th grade, not totally sure.  Photo booths are so fun to just be goofy in!

Sunday, October 7, 2012

We Are Here To Succeed

"God, who knows our capacity perfectly, placed us here to succeed."  Elder Neal A. Maxwell

Monday, October 1, 2012

Utah Snow

Snow covering the house I grew up in

Snow covering the vines of the summer house

My sisters playing in the snow by the summer house

Snow covering the cul-de-sac we lived at the end of

Snow on my mountains that I loved to look at

Snow on Mt. Timpanogas

Snow in the yard